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It’s been a long road to this place, but I can honestly say it’s getting better. Not because I suddenly got everything I wanted or needed. Not because I miss my family any less. Not because I do everything right either. I found this place by letting God back in my life (admittedly not as much as He deserves or in any huge way). I am easing back into living. I say “back”, but this could be the first time ever. I am listening to my heart and living for today and the promise of a new day every time I am blessed to open my eyes every morning. This is MY life. I chose it, so I am for the first time am going to enjoy it!

I’m taking better care of my body and I’m taking better care of my soul and the well-being of my family. I am figuring out there are many different kinds of nourishment.  Healthy eating and healthy relationships with one another are my top priorities. God gave me this body, where my son grew. He gave me my husband who I’ve learned a lot about love and forgiveness from. He also gave me a beautiful amazing son and the opportunity to serve my country by standing behind this man I chose. Those aren’t things to take for granted like I have been! I have been so focused on what we do without, that I couldn’t see what I have had all along. I’ve also been blessed with some amazing friends here that really keep me going. Once you make a friend under these circumstances and bond the way only military wives can, they are friends for life!

So I really have found my happy place. It’s just a moment each day where I can appreciate and take care of what I have and plan for ways to do it better! My happy place is a list completed, that allowed me to have a clean house or things taken care of for my family. A healthy meal, that will help us all thrive in a very stressful place that can take a toll on your body. A shower to start my day and my “warpaint” to help me face the day, instead of pj’s and bed head for most of  it. It’s a home free of clutter (working on that one), that I hope will spread to every other part of my life.

So I will keep making my lists. Keep striving to do it better the next day. Keep my ears and my shoulder open to my friends. Keep working every day to strengthen this marriage God gave me. Find ways to help Alek grow into a man that He/he can be proud of! That’s my happy place. Just little moments every day that let me know that I am still growing and that one day, I will know for sure that I fulfilled my purpose.

Are you still working to fulfill yours? Or are you like I was, and letting your life go on without you? Are you letting God show you the value of even the smallest tasks?

These random thoughts, brought to you by junk food free lunch and my “thoughtful spot” (if your kid is a Winnie the Pooh freak like mine, you’ll know what I mean)

Snapshot of my spot.

Blueberry green tea, turkey on wheat sandwich, coupons to clip, lists to make, and a blog in my head to type.

Best wheat bread ever! Little bit of everything in it.

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Keeping with my baby steps approach to life, I realize that even a baby step can turn out to be a giant leap sometimes.

I still consider myself a “newlywed” after 4 years because we have barely begun our life together and barely begun to figure all this out. In our short time together so far, we have been through more challenges and obstacles than the majority of newly married couples.  We had yet to make that leap into this life being “OURS” and not his and mine. We were apart for a large chunk of our marriage so far, and never really had a life together.

It’s a difficult thing to balance working together while still maintaining some independence. (Especially for the stay at home mom) Living in Germany sure hasn’t made it easy to keep any independence and that was putting a HUGE strain on our relationship. You’ve heard me complain about how lonely and oppressive it can be here.  I’ve decided to take some steps to save my sanity. I started with my mental and physical well being and focusing my energies. The next step is to take back a little independence and for once really be able to take care of my family.  With previous debts and a very complicated juggling act to keep us afloat financially, I had shied away from taking responsibility for the budget and our expenses. It started to feel like I was a child with an allowance versus a partner in this thing. It’s was both of our faults, but this had to change.

I have put a LOT of thought into how I can really take responsibility for our financial woes and feel like an equal partner. Men and women think about things in different ways. Plain and simple. Having different points of view is the only way to tackle difficult situations. He sees the big picture only, and I’m more of an “ok, how do we get this done” person. Prime example: cleaning a house doesn’t involve nearly as many steps to most men as it does to most women.

This is where my baby step approach comes in. There are little things I can do in addition to really paying attention to the bills we already have. We don’t have any kind of budget right now, and it’s eating us alive. To some of you this is old hat and lessons you learned years ago. To me, this is pretty new and intimidating stuff!!

My general game plan to get us on the road to a real budget: (Yep, we are that far gone!)

  • Weekly menus.

I’m not talking about Monday equals meatloaf, Tuesday equals spaghetti. I plan to shop by the meal for 7 days.(what we eat first depends on what is the most perishable) Start calculating what we are spending on the average week per meal. That way we don’t waste, and can clearly see where our money is going. This will also really help with our diet! If I’m planning meals, we are less likely to drag in junk or in a panic go for take out.

  • Set aside a “household fund”

This will definitely be my department and something I’m pretty excited to dive into.  Instead of just blindly spending or asking my husband if we can afford something, I will, for once know. It’s a terrible feeling to want to take care of your family and not have the means to do so. This will be after we pay the major bills to see what is left over to divi out on a bi-weekly basis. We get paid on the first and fifteenth. If he isn’t already doing this, I’d rather spread the bills out evenly instead of one paycheck being a lot smaller than the other.

In the fund I will be able to budget out incidentals, supplies, projects, repairs etc. Alek currently needs a dresser, headboard and rug. To do that we have to be able to budget it out so we aren’t put in a bad situation at the end of the pay period like we have been for a few years now! This might even end up in us setting up a separate account just for this purpose. I need to be able to have some emergency cash and taking care of things that come up without worrying about breaking the bank. Clothes for the family, new shoes, furniture…..the list goes on and on. I just don’t want us to be blind sided with these expenses we should have already planned for! 

  • Tackle existing debt.
I’ve approached Keith with this before, but I think it’s easier said than done on his own. Without a clear budget and really knowing what I need before crunch time, he has had to “rob Peter to pay Paul” on many occasions.  Totally not his fault, but we just can’t do this anymore! I want to start tackling the smaller credit cards and debts and checking those off the list. The smallest amounts usually have the most interest tacked on them! By the end of the year and certainly after his pay raise goes into affect next summer, we should even have some of the bigger bills paid off as well.
My goal is to go back to the states with most of our old baggage taken care of!!
Then the real fun begins of getting a second car, furniture, and setting up a new place without having this cycle take over again!! I hope with starting good spending habits now, we won’t be getting ourselves into major debt in the future. Wish me luck!!
I hope to start posting our weekly menus/grocery shopping lists on here to sort of share ideas. I’ll even post how much I have saved with coupons etc. This week with a half empty pantry and freezer, I put together 10 meals with the random food that we had in there!! I have also already started on a list of what fall clothes we will need and what we already have so we know what’s coming.
This should prove interesting if not extremely challenging! I’m ready to feel like a responsible adult for the first time in my life.

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Cele|bitchy » Blog Archive » Jennifer Garner has a bump: pregnant,...

Jennifer Garner is my favorite “hollywood mom”. She is soooo down to earth, so hands on with her daughters (and now baby #3!) You will usually catch her in jeans and sneakers instead of the high maintenance “I care more about who I’m wearing than who I’m with” look that so many seem to have these days! She seems to have a healthy marriage, self image, and is clearly grounded. If I had to say who I looked to the most for inspiration, celebrity wise, it would definitely be her! Way to go Jen! Now were can I find that top!? I love it!! 

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Excerpts from some great diet/health articles that I have been reading.  I have 30 pounds to lose (for good) and I’m giving my self 6 months to do it. That’s roughly 5 pounds a month. I am plan on walking (at the VERY least for exercise) at least an hour a day. Even if I have to do it at midnight! There is a pretty helpful guide here: http://www.livestrong.com/article/39352-lose-pounds-months/   —This will be printed off and posted in my face somewhere! I am also taking a picture of myself in form fitting clothes and putting it as my laptop background. No one sees it but me, and it’s definitely something I need to see to keep me motivated!

Lean Proteins: 

(From http://www.rd.com/health/11-healthy-ways-to-load-up-on-lean-protein/ )

Eggs have been much maligned over the years, but the fact is, they are an excellent and inexpensive source of protein and the most nutritionally complete of all protein sources. One large, hard-boiled egg contains 7 grams of protein and has just 2 grams of saturated fat. To avoid the saturated fat altogether, use the egg whites and throw out the yolks. Or you can dress that egg up (and get in a serving of veggies) by making an omelet and folding in iron- and fiber-rich spinach. In studies, people who ate eggs and toast for breakfast stayed full longer and ate significantly fewer calories the rest of the day than people who ate a bagel and cream cheese. Eggs do contain a fair amount of cholesterol, but dozens of studies have shown that it’s saturated fat, not dietary cholesterol, that raises people’s cholesterol the most.

Sushi delivers protein and some fiber and is generally low in calories—one piece of a California roll has just 30 calories and less than a gram of fat. Just steer clear of the soy sauce, which is very high in sodium, or ask for the low-sodium kind.

Ground Sirloin; the leanest ground beef around. A 3-ounce serving has 196 calories and 10 grams of fat. The next leanest is ground round (for 218 calories, 13 grams of fat), then ground chuck and ground beef (both about 231 calories, 15 grams of fat). But do limit red meat intake to no more than two servings per week as it does contain saturated fats. (the BAD kind)

Pork loin is very lean meat and isn’t too expensive. Throw a couple of chops on the grill (dress them up first with a low-calorie garlic–lime juice marinade, or with chili and garlic powders) for a quick dinner—each is just 129 calories, with a healthy 16 grams of protein.

Chicken Tenderloins. Keep them in your freezer for quick meals. Each tenderloin weighs about 11⁄2 to 2 ounces, which makes portion control easy for you—two tenderloins are roughly equal to one 3-ounce serving, which is about the size of a deck of cards. Tenderloins will marinate quickly and can be used in kebabs or tossed into stir-fry dishes

Deli turkey and chicken.  Lean slices of meat on whole-wheat bread topped with mustard and baby spinach leaves make a healthy, low-cholesterol lunch—that is, if you select lunch meats that are low in saturated fat. Skip the salamis and bolognas. Good second choices are lean ham and roast beef—just stick to two slices or 11⁄2 ounces of meat in your sandwich.

Seafood. (Cold water fish tends to be lower in saturated fat than say poultry or beef) Vacuum-packed sole, cod, or salmon fillets, which are flash-frozen, are the next best thing to fresh fish. Keep some in the freezer and you’ll always have ingredients for a healthy dinner on hand. You can thaw the fish in the fridge overnight or defrost it under cool running water. Cleaned frozen shrimp is another great buy. Pair it with frozen mixed veggies and you have a stir-fry dinner ready to go.

^Would you believe this is a lentil cake??^

Beans, lentils and peas. Beans, peas, and lentils are also good lean protein sources, particularly for those who follow a vegetarian diet. They provide plenty of fiber, which most of us need to increase in our diets. The protein and fiber pack a “one-two punch” that can help you feel fuller much longer than other foods and thereby prevent overeating. Try adding them to other recipes such as chili, soup, or even salads, and gradually increase your serving size or frequency to avoid gastric woes. (Adding too much fiber to your diet at once can cause gas and cramps.)

Other helpful tips (various sorces)

*Keep canned chicken broth readily available in your pantry. It contains trace amount of fat and just 10 calories per cup. It’s perfect as a substitute for butter when you stir fry. You can also use it to make tasty, reduced-fat mashed potatoes.

*Butter Buds is a fat-free granulated butter flavoring. Great on steamed veggies, popcorn, and baked potatoes.

*Don’t underestimate Mrs. Dash seasonings in a pinch.

*Try adding new herbs and spices instead of other enhancers like cheese or butter sauce. Keep in mind that dried herbs are actually more flavorful than fresh, so use less. Experiment with basil, dill, tarragon, curry, and others until you find your favorites.

Some things I have switched to/started trying:

I have kicked the soda habit! Only on occasion (and only if we are out to eat) will I have ONE-NO REFILL diet Coke or Sprite.  I was noticing a lot of my calories were “empty” calories from sugary drinks. It is water water water mostly for me, although I am really getting into all types of tea! As long as you don’t go crazy with the sugar, this can be a great alternative on the days when you could just really use some caffeine or a break from water. I am still dabbling with green tea also, but haven’t found a brand I like that is not bitter. I have at least a dozen herbal teas and black tea  in my cabinet currently. Usually I just sweeten with honey.

Long ago we stopped using real butter or margarine and switched to the “fake butter”, you do still have to watch your intake with the tub/stick versions of these but the spray it is really hard to go wrong.  Not even sodium involved!

Speaking of that nasty “S” word!!  SODIUM! I have cut out sooo much sodium in my diet, and let me tell you that is no easy feat! I have noticed an extremely high content of sodium in most of the products I would normally have purchased! I have read that your daily intake should be no more than 1500-2400 mg. (The sodium content in a teaspoon of salt is 2300mg!) So we are consuming enough salt on a daily basis to pickle ourselves! HAHA!  I know we are all smart enough to know why too much sodium is bad besides the obvious health risks. The water weight alone that I have on me from it all alone is enough to make me want to limit my intake!

In all my reading lately, a diet/lifestyle that accommodates everything that I am trying to do in the healthiest way possible is Clean Eating. I am by no means a “health nut”. I love junk food! BUT it does NOT love me back. If I want to change, it’s got to be something that I won’t get bored with and fall back into old habits. This is an easier diet than you’d think. You just have to have some willpower with what you pick up at the grocery store and being a little less lazy with meals. It requires a lot more work, but let’s face it- I need something to keep me from going crazy over here!

Clean Eating Principles

  • Eating a mini-meal every two to three hours (5 to 6 small meals per day total) to keep blood sugar level and prevent hunger
  • Combining lean proteins and complex carbs at every meal
  • Avoiding all over-processed and refined foods (especially sugar, white rice, and white flour)
  • Avoiding saturated and trans fat, instead consuming healthy fats
  • Avoiding soda and other sugary juices and drinks
  • Avoiding high-calorie, zero nutrient foods (i.e., junk food)
  • Eating proper portion sizes
  • Drinking at least 8 cups of water every day
This is pretty much what a doctor would advise you to do to become healthier or lose weight anyway! No gimmicks. No counting. No beating yourself up! There are TONS of “clean eating” recipes to be found. One of my favorite sites is http://thejoyofcleaneating.com/ . Just a plethora of delicious recipes and ideas! Most are really fun to experiment with and even if you don’t go all “organic” or “natural”, you still aren’t taking in half as much of the bad stuff that’s in pre packaged foods and take out!
WISH ME LUCK!!!

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All the seemingly random and monotonous posts of different outfits and style posts finally produced a clear idea of the direction I want to go towards while “building my wardrobe”. I am tired of wasting money dipping my toe in styles that just don’t suit me, having drawer after drawer of old reliable loungewear that just breeds laziness and an overall sloppy bad day.

I am not vain by any means, but a woman likes to feel good about herself. If you haven’t noticed that’s why my blog is all about. Feeling good about myself and sharing ways that I have discovered to do so.  I want to turn my graveyard of all things slouchy and ratty wardrobe into something that I can build on and possibly carry me into a better state of mind.

It may seem silly and very old school, but Keith having just made his new rank of Master Sgt in the USAF really got me thinking. I thought with his new stripe, I should also wear one of my own (so to speak). We military wives can get run down and weary and boy can we look it! I’d like to take it back a few years when women took pride in their airmen/soldiers, families, and themselves! It was a rare thing around 30 or 40 years ago to see a woman waltz into even the grocery store sporting pajama pants, house shoes, a holey t-shirt and bed head. I have been GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY of this many a time. To think of what image I was portraying makes me a little sad. Is that what I want my son to see and remember? A mom that was just too worn down to take care of herself?

I had a terrible realization last night. For my child’s entire existence in this world, we have faced nothing but difficult situations, stress, hardships, and turmoil. Heck, even before he was born our life was a mess. I envy so much the families who get to make a home somewhere for more than a year, who can actually create structure and get to enjoy their extended family. To think of how much he has missed and how much the rest of the family has missed of him gets me really down! I am capable and I do know to make the best of what we do have and that this is a great experience for us all, but this is not all he needs and definitely not all that I need. For his first three years, I have NOT been the best parent or person I know that I can be.  I have been scrambling and scratching to get myself out of this hole that I’ve fallen in.

I’ve always always been interested in fashion and the arts. It’s time I found joy in those interests again and use it my advantage. Even, in a sense, to my family’s advantage. I can be a better wife and mother if I finally figured out what makes me happy and what keeps me going, so I can nurture, protect, take care of, and be there for them!

So out with the stacks and stacks of oversized shirts, lounge pants. Out with going three days or more without putting a stitch of makeup on to help me face the day. Out with not even getting dressed some days (yes I shower daily).  Out with frowning at myself in the mirror or groaning in disgust. Out with “waiting” to dress better for this pre-baby body that may or may not make a comeback.  I’m older now, my body did change shape to accommodate my pregnancy, and let’s face it life changes you in every way possible! So no, I won’t be deluding myself into thinking that 24 year old me is the only me that can look good.

I don’t write this blog to gain recognition, make money, or even have a ton of readers. If even one person gains any inspiration or motivation out of anything I write or post, then that’s enough.

I do have plans on giving my blog a new little spin for 2012. Lots to be happy about next year. I plan on also taking a few trips around Europe for our LAST (hallelujah) year here and sharing our travels with everyone. I plan on dabbling and cooking more and sharing my finds and adventures there too. I also plan on taking back up my art. I wish I would have scanned or saved my creations in the past, but oh well, time to make new things for my new life!!

Hopefully I can give this “place” a little more structure so I can share my thoughts a bit better!

*Next post will be my recent inspiration and FINALLY a clear idea of a style I can actually pull off. Also I will give more details about my body type and shape so you can see if it will work for you! *

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Unapologetic Monotony


This month I am working on overhauling my entire self image/look. It’s time for me to take charge and take time for myself. And since my blog is linked with my Polyvore account, you will be seeing a LOOOOOT of outfits and style ideas. I did warn that this blog has a good deal to do with fashion (among other interests of mine). I will be posting more of my own writing and more “blog” type posts soon. For now, it’s just a mental shopping list and inspiration ideas. I will try ANYTHING to stay clear of the Germany Blues!!!!!!!!! It’s lonely as hell here, and sometimes I don’t even feel like getting dressed because I know I won’t leave the house until we need food. Quite depressing. Soooo, I’ll express myself however I can.

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This week is not turning out to be one of my finest. Ok, so maybe this entire year. I find myself becoming a little more cynical and despondent each day. I am fighting it though! I am constantly calling on lessons my parents taught me on how to stay strong and focused.

But I still lose sight now and then. By lose sight, I mean I forget that life is a lesson in and of itself and it is in a constant state of change. When I start to resist that change, is when I fall short of who I know I can be.

I knew that life in another country was going to be a challenge and way out of my comfort zone. I can handle both of those things (now). I just had no idea how MUCH of a challenge even the day to day things could be. I had no idea how much I would have to push to the back of my mind to get through these 3 long years. My marriage is slowly beginning to mend, but each step seems to be more precarious than the last.

After 2 solid years of no breaks, no release, no outlet all that is starting to creep to the forefront. So to combat that, I am changing and working at the only things that are in my power. And that is my self-image and spiritual well being. This place, true to form, doesn’t make either of those things easy either! There isn’t even a church service that my family can attend. 3 years working on my husband to get him to open up to the idea of organized religion and I hit a brick wall. Long story/rant about why no church, but that’s another time.

The self image is slow going as well. I have just fallen so far, it’s hard to see the top anymore. The weight is very slow to come off. Motivation is hard to find.

Our finances are focused on getting us debt free for the next few years, so mostly all I can do is window shop and that’s OK with me! I know that in the long run, it’s the best step for my family. I know that once all this is settled we will have what we NEED as well as what we WANT. It’s hard not to “covet” though! I mean who doesn’t like to keep up with the Jones’ a little? Don’t lie. Our lifestyle is minimal to say the least right now. It’s freeing and oppressive all rolled into one.  We will have a yard for Alek one day, Keith and I will be able to take care of ourselves again one day, we will have two cars again one day, and I will be able to see my family whenever I want one day.

For now, I’ll stick to the only thing I can fix. And that’s my heart. I found this verse today and it spoke volumes to me. If I can give myself and my family a solid foundation to build on, “one day” when life is a little more-well, MORE, I draw strength from all that we are facing today and know that we have always been truly blessed.

Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel— rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.~ 1 Peter 3:3-4

8 Finally, all of you be of one mind, having compassion for one another; love as brothers, be tenderhearted, be courteous; 9 not returning evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary blessing, knowing that you were called to this, that you may inherit a blessing. 10 For

“ He who would love life
And see good days,
 Let him refrain his tongue from evil,
And his lips from speaking deceit.
11 Let him turn away from evil and do good;
 Let him seek peace and pursue it.

I have been studying what the Bible has to say about marriage and plan to write more about what I am learning soon.

 

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I can’t wait to get my hands on my parent’s massive trunk-o-pictures! My dad, aunt, uncle, cousin, and I went to visit my grandparents in Arizona when I was about 12. WHAT a long three days driving, trapped in a tiny Nissan with 4 other people! Once we got there it was so worth it! That is the most beautiful landscape I have ever encountered (and hey I live in Germany!)

Of course I can’t remember every detail, so that is more than enough reason for me to go back some day.

I remember having my first Sarsaparilla,  panning for gold, visiting an old west town(I’ll have to ask dad where we were exactly), seeing the Painted Desert, Sedona, the Grand Canyon, the petrified forest and a ton of other fantastic places! I remain completely in love with all the Native American wares that you can find in every city and almost every shop! Having a certain percentage of Native American heritage myself (Cherokee I believe), I appreciate the culture that much more. The music, art, and people are BEAUTIFUL.

I also remember my aunt riding a three wheeled bicycle! MAN do I want to find those pictures!!!

If by some miracle we did find ourselves stationed there, I would insist of having misters on our back porch. That was my favorite part of Mamaw Zel and Bob’s house! I found the heat there to be way more tolerable than the southern places I have lived. It’s hot, don’t get me wrong, but you can still breathe! Almost no humidity. If you plan to picnic, don’t leave your sandwich out on the table unless you expect to pick up a giant crouton 5 minutes later. :)

So I’ve decided it’s time for another mental vacation. It has been raining and grey for two days no, so I need some sun!

As always, I’ll even provide a soundtrack for the “journey”.  This is one of my FAVORITE songs!

Jamie O\’Neal, There Is No Arizona…… and of course I can’t figure out the embedding, so I will have to edit it later!

Can anyone name this classic??

The Wave Paria Canyon Vermilion Cliffs

Um, Wow.

The Painted Desert

The Petrified Forest

This might be horribly inappropriate, but I found it hilarious. HOW TRUE. The "first settlers" obviously had never heard the term trespassing.

Places like this are everywhere, and I could spend a FORTUNE.

Shorter post than usual today, because it is time for my nightly workout!! My neighbors (Kami or Holly) will go with me to the gym or walk until our legs hurt around the base. Diet is going great so far. Almost 10 pounds in a month. Slow and steady wins the race!

My goal is to one day TAKE all these family adventures and “mental” vacations for real and not cringe at myself in picutres! Oh, and have the energy to actually have some fun while we are there. Being overweight makes it impossible to last very long when you are exploring new places!

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